Dearest Hwon,

When I say that God is not a concept, I mean it in the sense that you are not a concept and I am not a concept. We exist outside of what people conceive us to be.

If you have a wife, you would know that even if you know her very much already, you would realize that sometimes you get the realization that you still don't know her. She is much much more than what you can ever think about who she is. And you realize that you married her not for the concept you have of her; you married her because she is a person. Same with God. True, there would always be a gap in knowledge; but there isn't that gap in love.

Obviously we don't stand on the same ground. Such was what I was saying when we don't even agree with which battleground are we gonna hack each other to bits. You have just demonstrated that the resolution does not lie in the battlefield of logic and reason, since you only have a penchant for contradictions and not a talent for syllogisms. Besides, paradoxes exist. God is a Reason but at the same time a Paradox. My experience confirms what I have read in the Bible about God. You may not need God or believe in God, but I hope you at least believe in love, other than just reason and necessity.

I don't claim or believe that the Bible is infallible on everything. I do believe that it is inerrant only in matters of faith and salvation, which was actually the purpose for which it was inspired by God to be written. We can only rightly judge it, therefore, according to the purpose by which it was created.

The people who wrote the books in the Bible came from different periods and from different contexts in a span of more or less 3,000 years; and they wrote of their EXPERIENCE of God. God's existence is not assumed but was experienced. If you haven't experienced God, you wouldn't understand anything about what they are really saying... that is, unless you allow yourself to experience it yourself. That is faith in its fundamental sense.

Faith is allowing yourself to experience not just reason but reality. The Bible is essentially a collection of "reflections in faith" by the people of God about their experience of God. So the Bible is an invitation to experience God by way of story, not an argument or a treatise to 'force' you into believing what you don't want to believe.

If you want to believe then there can be many reasons, but if you don't want to, you can also come up with my reasons or excuses also.
It is your 'faith' or what you believe and what you want to believe or allow yourself to believe that determines your reasoning.

The essential problem you have against God, or believing in God, can be answered by how much you want to give importance to faith in our daily lives and in our relationships. When I say "faith" I do not mean faith in God only but also faith in the meaning and purpose of life. Logic is need, and is governed by necessity. If you root meaning with necessity (no matter how logical you want to formulate it); then there can be no further meaning to love and God and for everything else. So love is nothing but need; God is need, and everything is need. All you need is need. Living is needing. There is no meaning or reason beyond need; well, I don't believe that crap. Relationships don't reach their entire meaning and purpose by need. I don't want people to love just because they need me.

If you're happy with your set of beliefs, then I am honestly happy for you. You deserve to be happy. I, therefore, sincerely respect how you find sense, meaning, and purpose at least in your personal life.

My brotherly love and fervent prayers are for you.


P.S. By the way, in my own opinion, when you said you got disappointed with God about the unanswered prayers by a lot of 'senselessly' suffering people you see, I would like to believe that God was inside you.

It was God who opened your eyes and heart to be bothered by their plight in the first place. God was inviting you to become the answer to their prayers. I hope you did not just stand there hating, and cursing... waiting for nothing, when you should have done something.

You could have at least talked to these suffering people.

I bet that if you did, you could have been surprised and would have marveled at the level of their faith. I speak from my own experience. I talk to homeless people all the time. Orphans, prisoners, people living in the slums and the garbage dump, children with special needs (disabilities), and people with terminal cancer. Unlike you, I am not afraid to talk to them, or do whatever little I can do for them.

And in those times that I do, what strikes me and changes me is that in the midst of all their suffering and poverty, they still love God. When I thought that they could have all the reasons not to believe in God, they chose faith rather than to lose hope instead. They may not appear happy in the same way we define happiness to be, but they have something more enduring and lasting than happiness. It is joy.

Joy in the midst of suffering. Call it a paradox, or call it a miracle.
But all I know is that God is there.

P.P.S. Take care, and farewell.