I just wanted to know if other people in the world thought about things the same way I did. Growing up, I was led to believe that I would do everything I ever wanted. Life was full of possibilities. Now that I'm at the age where I have to think about careers and wives and kids and bills and taxes, things are starting to look different and I sorta want out. I look around me and I see all my friends getting married and settling down, and it scares me. I don't have a single friend who is not either married or engaged, and I'm only 22 (in a month). What the hell? My best friend in high school got married at 19 and dropped out of college to work as a janitor at a high school to support his wife and kid. This guy was brilliantly smart, a talented writer, and a big history/religion buff, and now he's got no future outside of his family. We used to always hang out on the weekends. I knew him better than anyone, and he me. I used to give him advice on everything, and if something happened in his life, I knew about it. We were hella close. But then he got married. I go months without seeing him, and when I do, he won't leave the house as he doesn't want to leave his wife and kid alone. I know I can't blame him for it, but I can't believe that our friendship means so little to him now that he can't free up an hour once every couple of months to have lunch and catch up. And when they invite me over for cake and tea or something, I arrive and they seem to not notice me, going about their routine whilst I sit and wait in the living room for someone to talk to me. I don't want this to happen to me. I don't want to settle down. I don't want to have kids in the next five years. Yet every girlfriend I get seem to think that that is the most important thing right now. Guys are the ones who pop the question, right? So why are they the ones always bringing it up? Why do I have to tell women I am seeing I love them when I don't? Why can't two people date for fun and recreational sex? Where are the women who I CAN fall in love with, the ones that think the same as I, and feel that they don't have to settle down and start a bloody family the moment we get married? I want to travel. I want to live in hotels. I want to go from job to job. I want to find a group of pals who don't have to answer to a feminine presence. I still believe that big things await me, and that life is still full of itself. That I am special in some way and don't have to conform to the conditions and standards that society seems all too content to set. That the big adventure that is life doesn't have to stop just because I am adult. That the tedium I am experiencing now is passing. That life isn't over yet. Anyone else feel that way? Anyone feel that life is sorta not as exciting as you get older, yet it shoud be? What am I doing wrong? Teenagers, live it up now, and don't give in to peer pressure. Don't burn bridges.